I’m doing everything I can to be my best (that I know how), to do my best (with what I know), and learn from outside forces (or people) that open me up to acknowledgment. I do not know everything, and in fact I only know a smidge of my own personality and how I interact with others. Everything I do, every decision I make is based on what I know or feel is right for me at any given time, and also if there is another person involved in this decision process, what I believe to be right for that person, in relation to me. I am not perfect, I am only learning my place in this world, how to be, how to behave, how to speak, when to speak. I am learning. I will forever be learning in this existence we call life. I never mean anyone harm, nor do I ever make intentions to cause someone harm, I am only what I know at any given moment. And trust me it changes, but I only can attempt to do my best in my integrity and what I believe is the best way. I will make mistakes, I am human, I will forever make mistakes, because I have to make mistakes to learn. But I do not know I make mistakes until it is pointed out to me. Until I am acknowledged of its existance. Then the learning begins, and understanding.
I have made enemies in this world, without me wanting to make enemies. Because I have made decisions that are misconstrued in how I intended. I never mean harm. I do not know how to intentionally cause harm. I do not want to be misunderstood in any sort of context.
Many years ago I read a book, “The Four Agreements” by don Miguel Ruiz. The agreements are:
1. Be Impeccable with your Word.
2. Don’t take anything personally
3. Don’t make assumptions
4. Always do your best
It’s very difficult to learn (and practice) as I am learning and learning these over and over again. I am trying to do my best. Yeah, it’s taking me awhile for the lessons to sink in.
From a couple weddings recently. Kind of transcribes how I am as of late. Have to love little girls, so not afraid to just being.